Canada Day July 2, 2008

Happy Canada Day!

 

I am a Canadian and most times, I am proud of that.  I love our country.  I love the place I live in our country.  I love the freedoms we have.  I love our universal health care (of course, there are parts of it which could use improving…but in general, we are so fortunate to have access to the best in the world).  I am so proud that our country offers a full year parental leave.  I am proud that we are ‘peace keepers’.  I am proud that we are forward thinking in terms of gay marriage.  I am proud that we have a great sense of humour in general.  I am so proud of so many things.  If I were to travel, I would proudly show off my maple leaf.  I am a hockey watching, skate owning, touqe wearing Canadian. 

All that being said…we had a pretty laid back day.  We spent the majority of the day at my dad’s house.  We were helping get his air conditioning installed and a floor built for his new gazebo in the back yard.  The kids were into everything…..and even managed to escape the back yard!  There was much sun had…much sprinkler running…much laughing.  This evening, friends of ours came over for supper and a little Wii.  We bowled, we tennis’d.  It was good all around.  Now, I am making a huge pot of soup…apparently having the temperature in the low 30’s today wasn’t enough heat for me to avoid wanting a pot of hamburger soup.  I hope we have a fire again tonight.  I don’t think we will make it to any fire works..the girls have been in bed for a couple of hours already and the sun isn’t even fully down. 

Next year, we will hopefully make it to a parade and fireworks.  This year I am happy to lounge in the hamock in front of the fire pit, eating marshmellows S so perfectly toasts for me!

Happy Day!

Heart On My Sleeve June 28, 2008

I have always been one to put on a brave face.  To never really share or show my real feelings.  Today, I am making a change.

I hurt.  My feelings are hurt.  I miss my friends.  I don’t know where they have all gone.  I don’t know exactly what it is I said or did to make them turn away.  I say ‘all’ of my friends, but in all honesty, it is just 2 of my friends.  They were the 2 closest ones though.

It started about a year ago.  K just stoped coming around.  We used to do so much together.  I think it was because we bought a house and were making a move.  K was still renting at the time and I know that really bothered her.  Now, L has hardly been around for months.  Pretty much since she found out she was pregnant.  Maybe I didn’t act happy enough for her.  Maybe she feels I judge her (which I admit, I kind of do…bad me).  It just sucks to feel that the 2 closest people in your life don’t really want to be around any more.  I feel like I am in grade five again.  It hurts like a heartache or a breakup.  Hmmm. 

I am blessed though to have great friends still.  It is just that K and L don’t have children (L almost does).  They were friends of mine when I was me…before E and H.  I was a different person then.  We were friends because we liked each other, not because we have children in common.  I think I am sad to see that part of my life move into the past, to what once was.

I will get over it.  I always do.  This time though, I am sharing with you how sad I am by this loss.  I miss my friends.  I wish I had of been a better friend to them both.  I wish we could go back and be like old times.  Alas, all things change and move, so must I.

New Day, New Week June 9, 2008

I admit, I am a complete chicken shit….I haven’t been able to screw up the courage to knock on any doors and say, “wanna be my friend”.  I did manage to make it to a play group in my own village though!  Of course, it is June, and next week is the last get together for the summer.  Lucky me.  I hope that by next week I have made a good enough impression on at least one of the moms to get a phone number and a hopefully a new friend or two!  I say this is for the girls, but really, it is for me!  I need a friend.  I need someone to chat with, who will pop over for a coffee and maybe ever go to a movie with me once in a while.  I am lonely.  I miss human companionship.  The girls having playmates is really just icing on the cake!

I am a bad mom some times.  This afternoon I put E down for a nap and I didn’t bother putting a panty diaper on her.  Of course, she piddled in the bed.  The bed which the sheets were just washed for yesterday….spilled milk.  Hmmm.  Now, she is laying down in my bed, with a bare bum.  Hmmm.  I have to be more vigilant and keep her bum covered and the sheets dry. 

I hope this week is a good one.  I hope I make a friend.  I hope I remember to put diapers on before naps and bed.  I hope we enjoy our backyard to it’s fullest.  I hope I get to eat outside one of these nights! 

 

Knocking On Doors June 3, 2008

I am on a mission today.  I must be brave and not procrastinate like every other day so far.  I keep missing the mom pack who hang out in the park long after my kids are in bed……I think it would be a little strange to show up at the park without a child in tow.  So, today, I am going to walk across the street and knock on a door.  I am going to introduce myself and ask if they want to be our friends…..I feel like I am ten again, and starting a new school.  But, it is for the best.  Gas prices aren’t going down anytime soon and all our friends live out of our town…so I have to bite the bullet and make a friend or two.  Who knows, soon I might be the talk of the town….ha ha ha.